urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barspin xkillyourselfinthefacex xkillyourselfinthefacex 2003-08-17T06:59:21Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barspin:22385 2003-08-17T06:59:21Z 2003-08-17T06:59:21Z yep today is my birthday and im getting old. on another note im proud of myself for once. 22 and i still havent sold out to the darkside. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barspin:22164 2003-08-14T05:31:11Z 2003-08-14T05:31:11Z today was amzingly good. shane came over and we finally finished the quarter pipe i started. kenny and i rode it in. im siked now. maybe ill start building more ramps. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barspin:21978 2003-08-03T04:53:16Z 2003-08-03T04:53:16Z sworn enemy- innocence lost so yeah i havent felt like updating in a while. i havent done shit. work called me in for two days, wich is cool i guess. i wont have the money until after the shore trip. i finally got my hair dreaded. people say it looks good but im still not sure. last weekend at the beach people kept asking me for weed. i kinda got mad due to the fact i was wearing my edge shirt. people suck. yesterdays thunderstorm was pretty cool to watch from the inside of the ship at work. boredom sucks urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barspin:21624 2003-06-25T02:59:29Z 2003-06-25T02:59:29Z <a href="http://quizilla.com/users/Kenster/quizzes/How%20straight%20edge%20are%20you%3F/"><img src="http://images.quizilla.com/K/Kenster/1051120212_tures_0006.jpg" border="0" alt="erich"><br> <font size="-1">How straight edge are you?</font></a><br> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barspin:21398 2003-06-20T17:26:31Z 2003-06-20T17:26:31Z biohazard- tales from the harside so im bored out of my mind. umm. yesterday drove angel home to north jersey. the ride wasnt that bad. the seats in the yota get uncomfortable pretty quick. we hung out in jersey for a bit. then around 8 i headed home. the ride home was ok. i didnt get lost wich was good. <br /><br />today im sitting here. i organized my cds. i found my biohazard cd. my collection has to be the weekest ever. im getting pretty bored with it. if any one has free time burn me some cds it would be much apreciated. im still bored....<br /><br />let me think. weds went to 80s night like usual. chel was there with her faggot boyfriend. i noticed he has a receeding hair line. they left early so i couldnt start a fight. i will next time though. damn i hate that kid. so anyway.. i got my dance on a bit. overall it was a good night. maybe next week ill have more fun. <br /><br />i need to call unemployment. it needs to be dry out so i can ride trails more. hopefully i can go mudding today if the rain stops. ok im done urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barspin:21177 2003-06-18T17:28:47Z 2003-06-18T17:28:47Z man o war - metal warriors i have been slacking lately but i dont really care too much. so on sunday i took yohannes and introduced him to the wheeling scene. we had some good fun. after about two hours christine and her sisters met up with us. we put them in the back of the truck. then i proceeded to cover them all in mud. back in the woods a tree claimed my fender. its cool though. the fender was rubbing the tire, so i cut part of it off. after wheeling i went to mike migs show. i didnt dance much the place was a little small for. plus he asked me not to break any of the lights cause he would have to pay for them. after the show i went to shanes house and he gave me a bunch of shirts and a cool jacket. <br /><br />well yesterday i went and rode bmx. it was cool to actually have one dry day this month. trenton trails are sick. i cant wait until the wallride is done and its super dry. everything ill be so smooth. i got a little trail skill back. i made it through a section and tried some others. not too bad for not riding in two months. i did eat shit trying to barspin a nice sized set. im going to have to say that mikey definatly ruled the day. i was watching him go through the mains and he spun this huge set. so so nice. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barspin:20817 2003-05-29T05:07:52Z 2003-05-29T05:07:52Z well today i was off again. i played a good amount of dave mirra 2 but it kicked my ass. i got so frustrated. fuck that game. before that me and christine went mudding. on the way in i passed a peco security guard. i mean the place has like 18 no trespassing signs. i thought for sure i was going to get a ticket. we get back to the good stuff and for some reason all this fog kicked into play. i couldnt see a damn thing. my truck was acting weird so i said fuck it and left. pulling out into the street my truck stalls. its definatly not good to get seen pulling out of private property. now im sitting here awake being bored. lauryne added me to her friends list. yay i have friends. i feel special. ok maybe a little special.<br /><br /><br />oh on the way to dig at the trails some dude cuts kenny off, so naturaly kenny got all pissed about it and raises his hands. the dude in the back started waving his hands in a fighting gesture. of course the driver makes a quick right and is gone in no time. seriously this is getting to me. <br /><br /><br /><br />talk shit get beat up urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barspin:20576 2003-05-28T19:08:12Z 2003-05-28T19:08:12Z carcass- genital grinder 2 well i havent felt like updating in forever. i finally fixed the yota beast. it took forever and a day to find the part i needed for it. now its all good. i decided im going to to lift it 5 inches and get some bigger tires. thats if work picks back up. im hoping it does. i was supposed to dig today with kenny but its raining. the trails will get done some day. after last weeks events at the club ive been thinking alot. im on a talk shit and get beat up policy. i hate people who talk shit and nothing gets done about it. no more. let me see here what else to write oh....<br /><br /><br />friday<br />went to westchester to see upon creation. on the way to mikes got stopped by the fuzz. then my truck wopuldnt start back up. i called george because iw as right by his house. he took a while to get me. i enjoyed a propel while he took forever. met up with everyone at georges isntead of mikes. on the way we lost some car with these bitches in it. i dunno they were yohanens's friends or some shit. shane never showed. we got to the show i carried one thing in and didnt go back out. talked to jen for a while. leia and i joked around with her for introducing us 8 times. it was good fun though. upon creation was excellent, yohannes was nuts. heidnek played after. they were good to. i forgot dead silence was playing. they were good to. some wrestling took place on the floor i clothslined bill and pat. boner tackled me then ran for his life. <br /><br /><br /><br />well sat i was supposed to go mudding but the truck was dead. sun cant remember. monday i went to see bruce almighty. tues night rented some movies. watched tron. the transporter was good. oh well im done.............. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barspin:20371 2003-04-16T00:34:35Z 2003-04-16T00:34:35Z 1) If you could name yourself what would your name be? . chuck<br />2) Favorite Day of the year: friday the 13th<br />3) Favorite Day of the week:pay day<br />4) Favorite Color: not this again<br />5) Favorite Song:carcass- heartwork<br />8) 3 qualities in a person that you find attractive: level headed, cute, funny<br />9) Most Annoying Celebrity that you wish would go away: rosanne<br />10) The song that makes you turn off the radio every time you hear it: thats like 99% OF SHIT PLAYED ON THE RADIO<br />11) If you could be anyone or anything, what would you be? pro bmx<br />12) What is the stupidest thing you have ever said? i say stupid shit on a daily basis<br />13) One thing you like about yourself: hmmmmm<br />14) Favorite thing to wear: metal shirts<br />15) You can listen to any kind of music but: nu metal<br />16) Most memorable year in your life:all of them<br />19) If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? too much to list<br />20) If you could have anything right now, what would it be? a big truck<br />22) Does true love last forever? maybe<br />23) What's in your car? cds, a fruit punch gator aid, mud<br />24) About how many CD's do you own? not enough<br />25) If you were to kill yourself, how would you do it? you kill yourself <br />27) One word to describe yourself: tall<br />28) Favorite Food: taco bell<br />30) Three things you fear the most: drowing, heights, failing<br />31) Movie that you could watch a hundred times: fight club( i have)<br />32) Emotion to describe the way you feel about life: fuck off<br />33) Random Phrase: eat a dick<br />34) How many times have you fallen in love? skip question<br />35) How many relationships have you ended? a couple<br />36) Stereotypes people make about you: they say im a hessian<br />37) Would you rather talk about someone behind their back or to their face? to their face cause if im talking shit i wanna fight<br />39) Piercings? ears, eyebrow<br />40) If you could runaway right now, where would you go? away from pa<br />41) Favorite place to shop: wherever<br />42) People who don't understand you: can kill themselves<br />43) Would you rather be different or like everyone else? we all want to be different but we are all the same<br />45) Favorite toy you had when you were younger: matchbox cars<br />48) If you could take a picture of something right now, what would it be? sunset on a lake with a dock and a boat<br />Word Association <br /><br />-dog- samson<br />-brown- mud<br />-hot- hotter<br />-water-propel<br />-bed- sleepy<br />-flower- rose<br />-cold- hot<br />-love- stinks<br />-cow- tipping<br />-black- underwear<br />-car- truck<br />-phone- answering machine<br />-ring- sling<br />-God- missing<br />-friend- enemy<br />-swim- fun<br />-rock- rock on<br />-sweet- peppers<br />-bad- bad ass<br />-tree- leaves<br />-school- done with<br />-summer- bmx<br />-picture- camera<br />-fast- ticket<br />-boat- sinking<br />-shower- curtain<br />-feather- birds<br />-ear- nose<br />-vomit- yessss<br />-baby- diapers<br />-blood- your blood<br /><br /><br />Finish the Sentence <br /><br />-I would like to go - mudding<br />-I want...- some food<br />-I need...- tires<br />-more than anything I...- love bmx<br />-If I won the lottery...- id buy land<br />-I love... .........<br />-I see... london i see france i see yyeaah.......<br />-My dream concert would be... slayer, carcass and maiden<br />-The last thing I did was... scratch my arm<br />-The last person I hugged was... christine<br />-I yelled at... joe<br />-I kissed... no body<br />-I cried when... when i laughed at you for crying<br />-If I could have one pet it would be.. my kitty<br />-Last night... i got yelled at<br />-Right now... i my head hurts<br />-Love is... a pain in the ass<br />-I hate... shit talkers<br />-The last person I saw was... christine<br />-My parent (s)... arent around<br />-God is... still not around<br /><br />-My favorite sport is... pumkin chunkin<br />-My favorite band is... ask me again later<br />-I last ate... doritios<br />-I'd like to... be eating urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barspin:20077 2003-04-07T20:47:35Z 2003-04-07T20:47:35Z afi- " totalimmortal" work was beat. what the fuck is all this snow shit in spring? just all of a sudden it started snowing while we were in the ship. shane and i went to subway for lunch on the way there we had some fun with the yota. while we were leaving subway i saw a damn duck walking in the duck. i said" this is fucked up i just saw a duck walking in the snow". when we got back we went out into the field and tore it up. shane wasnt that excited. ate lunch fast then went back out with sam. we tore it up more. i hit this hole at like 25 and we jumped. so i started jumping from mud hole to mud hole. it was sweet after lunch the sent us home. before that we had a snowball fight for an hour. now im sitting here but im going so whatever. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barspin:19811 2003-04-06T23:08:34Z 2003-04-06T23:08:34Z today at work i was tired so i slept a bit. its amazing ow i got so tired i could sleep on cold steel. it was a good day though. i talked to some peopl about certain things wich made me feel better. well any way.<br /><br /><br /><br />my plans are finally coming together "excellent" urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barspin:19461 2003-04-02T02:16:54Z 2003-04-02T02:16:54Z well well well. today completely sucked ass. it started off with people at work who arent the boss trying to be the boss. then i was tired of being bossed around so i got a little hostile towards some of my co workers. i was seriously about to fight. i cant stand when people who are on the same level as me try to put me below them. so after all that drama i went to pep boys to get some gear oil for my transmission. i was supposed to go over and use sams garage. well yesterday sam cancelled and we were supposed to work on my truck today. then sam says he cant until eight. anyway, i go to pep boys get the shit and get christine something( to show i was thinking about her). after pep boys i came home i talked to christine for a bit. it finally was eight so i called sam and he didnt pick up. then he tries saying i didnt call him at eight. you know what fuck this entry im too mad. to every one who likes to dick me around fuck you <br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />" fuck the world, cause the world fucked me" urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barspin:19389 2003-04-01T00:41:04Z 2003-04-01T00:41:04Z today i found a mud hole at work. it was definatly a good time. then me and shane turfed the field at work, after we were done. that was hella fun too. i cant wait for wheeling season. well i get home from work and im here online, then my phone rings. its my cousin who i havent seen in two years. she lives in jersey but today she is in pa. she is gonna call in two hours and maybe come over and hang out. well that should be pretty cool. i guess im just acting weird about it because i dont want her to get a bad impression of pa. im sure things will be cool. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barspin:19076 2003-03-31T03:57:45Z 2003-03-31T03:57:45Z carcass- edge of darkness today i woke up and decided since i was scheduled i wouldnt go to work today. instead i went shopping. i bought the metallica kill em all shirt and the misfits die die die my darling shirt. i bought christine two tank tops. she looks so cute in them, they make me want to do her. Not that she isn't just that cute anyway, but you know. then i decided to make a light bar. so i went to lowes, to look for a piece of steel. well i didnt do any measuring. so i had to come home and get a measuring tape to decide on wich piece of steel i wanted to get. so after all that i came home and started to make my light bar. after about two hours i made the bar and mounted it. it makes my truck look hardcore. now i need a lift and tires. ok time for food and bed............ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barspin:18925 2003-03-26T01:39:02Z 2003-03-26T01:39:02Z i hate coming home and feeling uncomfortable. i think i spelled that wrong, but who cares urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barspin:18643 2003-03-25T03:54:50Z 2003-03-25T03:54:50Z tody i finally got my truck on the road. i am siked. my stick shift skills are rusty though. also jen added me to her buddy list today. yay!!! well that is all urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barspin:18283 2003-02-03T09:02:00Z 2003-02-03T09:02:00Z damn its been a while. actually i havent been motivated to update in forever. well a whole lot has been going on. i got a couple of tattoos. been riding some bmx. certain people want me to cut my hair and im saying " no". im not cutting my hair or my chops. so any way. work has been slow. usually i been working almost every day. now i have been sitting around. i guess it is kinda cool, since i get to chill out for a bit. kinda like a vacation if you will. well anyway thats it.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />man o war rules!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barspin:17931 2002-06-04T10:32:13Z 2002-06-04T10:32:13Z so i havent updated this bad boy in a while. well i i wont be, mainly cause i got kicked out and wont have a computer. thumbs down to that shit. but any ways... i have had an eventful past couple of weeks.<br />first off.. memorial day i went mudding. wich was quite well. it would have been hella better if i had my own truck to destroy. i watched some drunk girl jump her little ranger heade first into the hole, wich took out both her fenders and a lot of pulling to retract her from the cement mud. kevin sunk his truck once or twice. wayne broke about an hour or two into the trip. saw lots of huge ass trucks. lots of drunk rednecks, mud, trucks, and excitment for that trip. i cant wait to go back.<br /><br />for shows, i have been slacking. friday i went to see set ablaze at polanka park. wich was amazing. except fot the wet floor. it was good to get a chance to see hxc pat dance.also to join him in the destruction of the pit. somehting weird happened though. see usually if there is ome one i cant stand. some one i extremely hate at a show they hide. they hide in the back and i can never get them. friday was an exception. actually it was a hug excpetion. there was this kid i hated since high school. he used to talk mad shit to me. he used to be a thug but now all of a sudden he is all about shows and what not. the only thing is he had no idea what the hell he was doing. he tried gorilla moshing in the circle. well he got in front of me and i blasted him right in the side of the head. then he slammed into me and again and i sent him flying. he ran to the bathroom and didnt come back in the pit. it was a good show. i could have dealt without all the bullshit drama.<br /><br />sunday.....<br />i couldnt wait to see lamb of god. i have been waiting like two months for this show. it was on. the mosh was in full effect. well for all except for nick. it sucks he got kicked out during unearths first song. lamb of god was amazing. the first song they played was my favorite one. i dodnt care who was in the pit. i fucking danced hard as hell and didnt stop. after that i danced a bit but not as much as i wanted its cool. troc shows are usually like that anyway. then bob from a life once lost, pops out on stage from now wheres. he sang like most of a song. it was good. then he saing with the singer and the singer had to do mids cause bobs highs drowned him out.<br /><br />so after all the carnage there was more carnage outside. wich resulted in some dude hitting a good friend in the face with a bottle. all this while i was on the phone. phone in one hand and the other ready to hit this dude. but after seeing like all the people punching a kicking the shit out of this guy i was like ill back off. all i saw was blood every where on this guy, and every time he got away he talked more shit. thats why he kept getting his ass kicked. i doubt these guys will go to anymore philly shows.<br /><br />so monday. woke up a little to late. went out riding. rode the trails super good, got a damn fat tire. went to the bike shop and fixed it. then proceeded to ride to bristol. watched bubble boy at shanes house. that movie is mad fucked up. anyhow, we went to reefs house, and met up with reef and kenny. shane went home we rode to k mart. not much went on. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barspin:17777 2002-05-15T01:35:37Z 2002-05-15T01:35:37Z so what an eventful day. for some reason christine stil likes to stay in my room. well today she woke up late for work. so she called out. ok whatever. then she states that she does not want to sit here and watch tv all day. fine with me. so i stats that i dont want to go sit at shanes house. off we go to get alyssa. bam , what happens we end up at shanes house. what else happens? we are watching tv. what a load of bullshit. so i ask if i can go home. so on the way home a huge fight erupts. i guess im not allowed to be mad at the fact that christine is trying oh so hard to move on. im not allowed to be upset by this at all. i am handling this very mature like. i also even said i would ask shane if he likes christine. then i would tell shane i would not hate him or be mad if he went out or whatever with her. damn i thought i was being a good friend. god for fucking bid if i get upset one time during this whole thing. like i wasnt upset enough when she disapeared for a week. telling me to call her and not answering her phone. not even coming home until 9 in th emorning then satuday not coming home at all. oh no barspin is upset. who care how he feels. well fuck that. if htis is how thing will be and my feelings cant be respected i think ill need to bounce this friendship.damn im so pissed. im not pissed that christine wants shane. good for her be happy. im pissed cause im getting the totally crusted shitty end of the stick here. all i ask for is equality. damn urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barspin:17655 2002-05-10T10:35:44Z 2002-05-10T10:35:44Z so be considerate is over rated. this is what i learned today. my good day went downhill real fast. <br />dave and brian came to my rescue. we pretty much had nothing to do, and some how the converstation of hookers came up. me and dave have never seen an offical hooker. so off to kensington we went. it was intersting. we saw many hookers. one we even saw get into a guys car. then brian had to piss real bad. as did i. he got out of the car and pissed. since i am pee shy i didnt go. i held it the whole way. i said" there is no way my feet are touching that pavement" the ride was very fun. i laughed a lot. certain things in my head went bye bye. wich was good.<br />then i came home and watched airheads. tried to fall asleep. nope that didnt work. christine came home no compassion there. i need to change things. oh before i go................<br />a big fuck you to christines girls night out. wich indeed ended up with her hanging out with kenny. hmmm kenny is female now? if you just wanted to hang out at shanes house and didnt want me to come you could of said that. ..................................... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barspin:17226 2002-05-08T08:48:48Z 2002-05-08T08:48:48Z sepultura- stronger then hate im tired of people. fuck everyone. im tired of being nice and keeping my cool when i dont want to. my tolerence is breaking down. if this stupid bullshit in my life keeps up, a long with stupid people pissing me off. some one is going to get hurt. even worse some one will feel the wrath of my deadly gangrene knife. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barspin:16938 2002-05-03T04:51:44Z 2002-05-03T04:51:44Z look at my last post. hahahaha i dont even listen to converge. i think if you put you are angry as an answer then you automatically get converge as an answer urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barspin:16727 2002-05-03T04:48:20Z 2002-05-03T04:48:20Z <center><p><img src="http://firstclass.wit.edu/~briggs3/quiz/converge.jpg"></p><p><a href="http://www.selectsmart.com/FREE/select.php?client=HardcoreBand">Which Angry White Boy Band are You?</a></p><p>test by <span class='ljuser ljuser-name_endofsanity' lj:user='endofsanity' style='white-space: nowrap;'><a href='http://endofsanity.livejournal.com/profile'><img src='http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif' alt='[info]' width='17' height='17' style='vertical-align: bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /></a><a href='http://endofsanity.livejournal.com/'><b>endofsanity</b></a></span></p></center> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barspin:16529 2002-05-03T02:01:59Z 2002-05-03T02:01:59Z today i relize. i decided this is not the way my life shoud be, and im headed in the right direction. time to straighten things out. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:barspin:16156 2002-04-20T17:41:11Z 2002-04-20T17:41:11Z nothing, the nighbors lawn mower so yeah...........<br />yesterday was ok. i picked up alaina from the city. we came back here and then went to the bike shope. she was super siked to get a bike. it rained right after picking it up. so we just chilled. we watched some tv. went to daves. she rode her bike finally. then we went to ride with kenny and reef. then off to the ciy for me. we both rode the city for a couple of hours. went to some dinner, on the way there was some crazy tweeker with his pants around his ankles waving is junk at every one. i was scared and proceeded to run away. so what would a night be with out drama.<br />i was htinking to myself, i should call christine and let her know i was ok and let her know what i was. in fact i was thinking, if i call her and tell her what im doing she wont think im being shady. so i called her from a pay phone, who knew it would be quiet at 4 am. but it was and some how christine wears i didnt call her from a pay phone and i called her from alainas house. i dunno maybe she can give me my 80 cents i had to use to call her damn phone. but whatever, i guess it doesnt matter. she said it herself" i have no obligation to you" so does this mean i am a an adult i dont have to check in any more. maybe some one can answer me that. then again why would it matter if ther was no" obligation" and i fell asleep on her couch in the city. i dunno beats the hell out of me, for some reason it does matter that i didnt come home. thats ok i mean its cool if christine stays out and is shady about it. wait wait it doesnt matter i forgot. no fucking " obligation". well to me there is. in any friendship there should be obligation. maybe this is a sign of where things are going. naybe im wasting my time. this seems pointless any more. its a war barspin will never win.know certain people i will get comments that are mean. personally this is my journal and this is what it is used for. i think i need my head examined. what was i thinking. i guess i just really need a hug................