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Sunday, August 17th, 2003
2:48 am	im 22 now yep today is my birthday and im getting old. on another note im proud of myself for once. 22 and i still havent sold out to the darkside. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, August 14th, 2003
1:13 am	bmx, bmx, bmx today was amzingly good. shane came over and we finally finished the quarter pipe i started. kenny and i rode it in. im siked now. maybe ill start building more ramps. Current Mood: content (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 3rd, 2003
12:38 am	hair is annoying me so yeah i havent felt like updating in a while. i havent done shit. work called me in for two days, wich is cool i guess. i wont have the money until after the shore trip. i finally got my hair dreaded. people say it looks good but im still not sure. last weekend at the beach people kept asking me for weed. i kinda got mad due to the fact i was wearing my edge shirt. people suck. yesterdays thunderstorm was pretty cool to watch from the inside of the ship at work. boredom sucks Current Mood: amused Current Music: sworn enemy- innocence lost (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 24th, 2003
10:53 pm	How straight edge are you? brought to you by Quizilla (Comment on this)
Friday, June 20th, 2003
12:38 pm	boredom update so im bored out of my mind. umm. yesterday drove angel home to north jersey. the ride wasnt that bad. the seats in the yota get uncomfortable pretty quick. we hung out in jersey for a bit. then around 8 i headed home. the ride home was ok. i didnt get lost wich was good. today im sitting here. i organized my cds. i found my biohazard cd. my collection has to be the weekest ever. im getting pretty bored with it. if any one has free time burn me some cds it would be much apreciated. im still bored.... let me think. weds went to 80s night like usual. chel was there with her faggot boyfriend. i noticed he has a receeding hair line. they left early so i couldnt start a fight. i will next time though. damn i hate that kid. so anyway.. i got my dance on a bit. overall it was a good night. maybe next week ill have more fun. i need to call unemployment. it needs to be dry out so i can ride trails more. hopefully i can go mudding today if the rain stops. ok im done Current Mood: content Current Music: biohazard- tales from the harside (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 18th, 2003
1:13 pm	time to update i have been slacking lately but i dont really care too much. so on sunday i took yohannes and introduced him to the wheeling scene. we had some good fun. after about two hours christine and her sisters met up with us. we put them in the back of the truck. then i proceeded to cover them all in mud. back in the woods a tree claimed my fender. its cool though. the fender was rubbing the tire, so i cut part of it off. after wheeling i went to mike migs show. i didnt dance much the place was a little small for. plus he asked me not to break any of the lights cause he would have to pay for them. after the show i went to shanes house and he gave me a bunch of shirts and a cool jacket. well yesterday i went and rode bmx. it was cool to actually have one dry day this month. trenton trails are sick. i cant wait until the wallride is done and its super dry. everything ill be so smooth. i got a little trail skill back. i made it through a section and tried some others. not too bad for not riding in two months. i did eat shit trying to barspin a nice sized set. im going to have to say that mikey definatly ruled the day. i was watching him go through the mains and he spun this huge set. so so nice. Current Mood: amused Current Music: man o war - metal warriors (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 29th, 2003
12:55 am	bored and awake well today i was off again. i played a good amount of dave mirra 2 but it kicked my ass. i got so frustrated. fuck that game. before that me and christine went mudding. on the way in i passed a peco security guard. i mean the place has like 18 no trespassing signs. i thought for sure i was going to get a ticket. we get back to the good stuff and for some reason all this fog kicked into play. i couldnt see a damn thing. my truck was acting weird so i said fuck it and left. pulling out into the street my truck stalls. its definatly not good to get seen pulling out of private property. now im sitting here awake being bored. lauryne added me to her friends list. yay i have friends. i feel special. ok maybe a little special. oh on the way to dig at the trails some dude cuts kenny off, so naturaly kenny got all pissed about it and raises his hands. the dude in the back started waving his hands in a fighting gesture. of course the driver makes a quick right and is gone in no time. seriously this is getting to me. talk shit get beat up Current Mood: bored (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 28th, 2003
2:47 pm	" water + dirt = mud" well i havent felt like updating in forever. i finally fixed the yota beast. it took forever and a day to find the part i needed for it. now its all good. i decided im going to to lift it 5 inches and get some bigger tires. thats if work picks back up. im hoping it does. i was supposed to dig today with kenny but its raining. the trails will get done some day. after last weeks events at the club ive been thinking alot. im on a talk shit and get beat up policy. i hate people who talk shit and nothing gets done about it. no more. let me see here what else to write oh.... friday went to westchester to see upon creation. on the way to mikes got stopped by the fuzz. then my truck wopuldnt start back up. i called george because iw as right by his house. he took a while to get me. i enjoyed a propel while he took forever. met up with everyone at georges isntead of mikes. on the way we lost some car with these bitches in it. i dunno they were yohanens's friends or some shit. shane never showed. we got to the show i carried one thing in and didnt go back out. talked to jen for a while. leia and i joked around with her for introducing us 8 times. it was good fun though. upon creation was excellent, yohannes was nuts. heidnek played after. they were good to. i forgot dead silence was playing. they were good to. some wrestling took place on the floor i clothslined bill and pat. boner tackled me then ran for his life. well sat i was supposed to go mudding but the truck was dead. sun cant remember. monday i went to see bruce almighty. tues night rented some movies. watched tron. the transporter was good. oh well im done.............. Current Mood: awake Current Music: carcass- genital grinder 2 (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 15th, 2003
8:05 pm	" enslaving the young and destroying the old" 1) If you could name yourself what would your name be? . chuck 2) Favorite Day of the year: friday the 13th 3) Favorite Day of the week:pay day 4) Favorite Color: not this again 5) Favorite Song:carcass- heartwork 8) 3 qualities in a person that you find attractive: level headed, cute, funny 9) Most Annoying Celebrity that you wish would go away: rosanne 10) The song that makes you turn off the radio every time you hear it: thats like 99% OF SHIT PLAYED ON THE RADIO 11) If you could be anyone or anything, what would you be? pro bmx 12) What is the stupidest thing you have ever said? i say stupid shit on a daily basis 13) One thing you like about yourself: hmmmmm 14) Favorite thing to wear: metal shirts 15) You can listen to any kind of music but: nu metal 16) Most memorable year in your life:all of them 19) If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? too much to list 20) If you could have anything right now, what would it be? a big truck 22) Does true love last forever? maybe 23) What's in your car? cds, a fruit punch gator aid, mud 24) About how many CD's do you own? not enough 25) If you were to kill yourself, how would you do it? you kill yourself 27) One word to describe yourself: tall 28) Favorite Food: taco bell 30) Three things you fear the most: drowing, heights, failing 31) Movie that you could watch a hundred times: fight club( i have) 32) Emotion to describe the way you feel about life: fuck off 33) Random Phrase: eat a dick 34) How many times have you fallen in love? skip question 35) How many relationships have you ended? a couple 36) Stereotypes people make about you: they say im a hessian 37) Would you rather talk about someone behind their back or to their face? to their face cause if im talking shit i wanna fight 39) Piercings? ears, eyebrow 40) If you could runaway right now, where would you go? away from pa 41) Favorite place to shop: wherever 42) People who don't understand you: can kill themselves 43) Would you rather be different or like everyone else? we all want to be different but we are all the same 45) Favorite toy you had when you were younger: matchbox cars 48) If you could take a picture of something right now, what would it be? sunset on a lake with a dock and a boat Word Association -dog- samson -brown- mud -hot- hotter -water-propel -bed- sleepy -flower- rose -cold- hot -love- stinks -cow- tipping -black- underwear -car- truck -phone- answering machine -ring- sling -God- missing -friend- enemy -swim- fun -rock- rock on -sweet- peppers -bad- bad ass -tree- leaves -school- done with -summer- bmx -picture- camera -fast- ticket -boat- sinking -shower- curtain -feather- birds -ear- nose -vomit- yessss -baby- diapers -blood- your blood Finish the Sentence -I would like to go - mudding -I want...- some food -I need...- tires -more than anything I...- love bmx -If I won the lottery...- id buy land -I love... ......... -I see... london i see france i see yyeaah....... -My dream concert would be... slayer, carcass and maiden -The last thing I did was... scratch my arm -The last person I hugged was... christine -I yelled at... joe -I kissed... no body -I cried when... when i laughed at you for crying -If I could have one pet it would be.. my kitty -Last night... i got yelled at -Right now... i my head hurts -Love is... a pain in the ass -I hate... shit talkers -The last person I saw was... christine -My parent (s)... arent around -God is... still not around -My favorite sport is... pumkin chunkin -My favorite band is... ask me again later -I last ate... doritios -I'd like to... be eating Current Mood: awake (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, April 7th, 2003
4:23 pm	" but i feel drawn to the evil chanting hordes" work was beat. what the fuck is all this snow shit in spring? just all of a sudden it started snowing while we were in the ship. shane and i went to subway for lunch on the way there we had some fun with the yota. while we were leaving subway i saw a damn duck walking in the duck. i said" this is fucked up i just saw a duck walking in the snow". when we got back we went out into the field and tore it up. shane wasnt that excited. ate lunch fast then went back out with sam. we tore it up more. i hit this hole at like 25 and we jumped. so i started jumping from mud hole to mud hole. it was sweet after lunch the sent us home. before that we had a snowball fight for an hour. now im sitting here but im going so whatever. Current Music: afi- " totalimmortal" (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 6th, 2003
6:57 pm	" you'll take my life but ill take yours to. you'll fire your musket but i'll run you through" today at work i was tired so i slept a bit. its amazing ow i got so tired i could sleep on cold steel. it was a good day though. i talked to some peopl about certain things wich made me feel better. well any way. my plans are finally coming together "excellent" Current Mood: shocked (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 1st, 2003
8:49 pm	" kill for gain or shoot for maim" well well well. today completely sucked ass. it started off with people at work who arent the boss trying to be the boss. then i was tired of being bossed around so i got a little hostile towards some of my co workers. i was seriously about to fight. i cant stand when people who are on the same level as me try to put me below them. so after all that drama i went to pep boys to get some gear oil for my transmission. i was supposed to go over and use sams garage. well yesterday sam cancelled and we were supposed to work on my truck today. then sam says he cant until eight. anyway, i go to pep boys get the shit and get christine something( to show i was thinking about her). after pep boys i came home i talked to christine for a bit. it finally was eight so i called sam and he didnt pick up. then he tries saying i didnt call him at eight. you know what fuck this entry im too mad. to every one who likes to dick me around fuck you " fuck the world, cause the world fucked me" Current Mood: tear you to shreds (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, March 31st, 2003
7:15 pm	" bring your daughter to the slaughter" today i found a mud hole at work. it was definatly a good time. then me and shane turfed the field at work, after we were done. that was hella fun too. i cant wait for wheeling season. well i get home from work and im here online, then my phone rings. its my cousin who i havent seen in two years. she lives in jersey but today she is in pa. she is gonna call in two hours and maybe come over and hang out. well that should be pretty cool. i guess im just acting weird about it because i dont want her to get a bad impression of pa. im sure things will be cool. Current Mood: content (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 30th, 2003
10:25 pm	" covered in sinners and dripping with guilt" today i woke up and decided since i was scheduled i wouldnt go to work today. instead i went shopping. i bought the metallica kill em all shirt and the misfits die die die my darling shirt. i bought christine two tank tops. she looks so cute in them, they make me want to do her. Not that she isn't just that cute anyway, but you know. then i decided to make a light bar. so i went to lowes, to look for a piece of steel. well i didnt do any measuring. so i had to come home and get a measuring tape to decide on wich piece of steel i wanted to get. so after all that i came home and started to make my light bar. after about two hours i made the bar and mounted it. it makes my truck look hardcore. now i need a lift and tires. ok time for food and bed............ Current Mood: tired Current Music: carcass- edge of darkness (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 25th, 2003
8:24 pm	" dont give me dirty looks" i hate coming home and feeling uncomfortable. i think i spelled that wrong, but who cares Current Mood: aggravated (Comment on this)
Monday, March 24th, 2003
10:40 pm	barspin drives again tody i finally got my truck on the road. i am siked. my stick shift skills are rusty though. also jen added me to her buddy list today. yay!!! well that is all Current Mood: happy (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, February 3rd, 2003
3:46 am	holr shit barspin lives!!!!!!! damn its been a while. actually i havent been motivated to update in forever. well a whole lot has been going on. i got a couple of tattoos. been riding some bmx. certain people want me to cut my hair and im saying " no". im not cutting my hair or my chops. so any way. work has been slow. usually i been working almost every day. now i have been sitting around. i guess it is kinda cool, since i get to chill out for a bit. kinda like a vacation if you will. well anyway thats it. man o war rules!!! Current Mood: anxious (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 4th, 2002
5:57 am	mud, bmx , metal, fighting........... so i havent updated this bad boy in a while. well i i wont be, mainly cause i got kicked out and wont have a computer. thumbs down to that shit. but any ways... i have had an eventful past couple of weeks. first off.. memorial day i went mudding. wich was quite well. it would have been hella better if i had my own truck to destroy. i watched some drunk girl jump her little ranger heade first into the hole, wich took out both her fenders and a lot of pulling to retract her from the cement mud. kevin sunk his truck once or twice. wayne broke about an hour or two into the trip. saw lots of huge ass trucks. lots of drunk rednecks, mud, trucks, and excitment for that trip. i cant wait to go back. for shows, i have been slacking. friday i went to see set ablaze at polanka park. wich was amazing. except fot the wet floor. it was good to get a chance to see hxc pat dance.also to join him in the destruction of the pit. somehting weird happened though. see usually if there is ome one i cant stand. some one i extremely hate at a show they hide. they hide in the back and i can never get them. friday was an exception. actually it was a hug excpetion. there was this kid i hated since high school. he used to talk mad shit to me. he used to be a thug but now all of a sudden he is all about shows and what not. the only thing is he had no idea what the hell he was doing. he tried gorilla moshing in the circle. well he got in front of me and i blasted him right in the side of the head. then he slammed into me and again and i sent him flying. he ran to the bathroom and didnt come back in the pit. it was a good show. i could have dealt without all the bullshit drama. sunday..... i couldnt wait to see lamb of god. i have been waiting like two months for this show. it was on. the mosh was in full effect. well for all except for nick. it sucks he got kicked out during unearths first song. lamb of god was amazing. the first song they played was my favorite one. i dodnt care who was in the pit. i fucking danced hard as hell and didnt stop. after that i danced a bit but not as much as i wanted its cool. troc shows are usually like that anyway. then bob from a life once lost, pops out on stage from now wheres. he sang like most of a song. it was good. then he saing with the singer and the singer had to do mids cause bobs highs drowned him out. so after all the carnage there was more carnage outside. wich resulted in some dude hitting a good friend in the face with a bottle. all this while i was on the phone. phone in one hand and the other ready to hit this dude. but after seeing like all the people punching a kicking the shit out of this guy i was like ill back off. all i saw was blood every where on this guy, and every time he got away he talked more shit. thats why he kept getting his ass kicked. i doubt these guys will go to anymore philly shows. so monday. woke up a little to late. went out riding. rode the trails super good, got a damn fat tire. went to the bike shop and fixed it. then proceeded to ride to bristol. watched bubble boy at shanes house. that movie is mad fucked up. anyhow, we went to reefs house, and met up with reef and kenny. shane went home we rode to k mart. not much went on. Current Mood: awake (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 14th, 2002
9:15 pm	so what an eventful day. for some reason christine stil likes to stay in my room. well today she woke up late for work. so she called out. ok whatever. then she states that she does not want to sit here and watch tv all day. fine with me. so i stats that i dont want to go sit at shanes house. off we go to get alyssa. bam , what happens we end up at shanes house. what else happens? we are watching tv. what a load of bullshit. so i ask if i can go home. so on the way home a huge fight erupts. i guess im not allowed to be mad at the fact that christine is trying oh so hard to move on. im not allowed to be upset by this at all. i am handling this very mature like. i also even said i would ask shane if he likes christine. then i would tell shane i would not hate him or be mad if he went out or whatever with her. damn i thought i was being a good friend. god for fucking bid if i get upset one time during this whole thing. like i wasnt upset enough when she disapeared for a week. telling me to call her and not answering her phone. not even coming home until 9 in th emorning then satuday not coming home at all. oh no barspin is upset. who care how he feels. well fuck that. if htis is how thing will be and my feelings cant be respected i think ill need to bounce this friendship.damn im so pissed. im not pissed that christine wants shane. good for her be happy. im pissed cause im getting the totally crusted shitty end of the stick here. all i ask for is equality. damn Current Mood: homicidal (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, May 10th, 2002
6:17 am	"metal and man clash once more to the end" so be considerate is over rated. this is what i learned today. my good day went downhill real fast. dave and brian came to my rescue. we pretty much had nothing to do, and some how the converstation of hookers came up. me and dave have never seen an offical hooker. so off to kensington we went. it was intersting. we saw many hookers. one we even saw get into a guys car. then brian had to piss real bad. as did i. he got out of the car and pissed. since i am pee shy i didnt go. i held it the whole way. i said" there is no way my feet are touching that pavement" the ride was very fun. i laughed a lot. certain things in my head went bye bye. wich was good. then i came home and watched airheads. tried to fall asleep. nope that didnt work. christine came home no compassion there. i need to change things. oh before i go................ a big fuck you to christines girls night out. wich indeed ended up with her hanging out with kenny. hmmm kenny is female now? if you just wanted to hang out at shanes house and didnt want me to come you could of said that. ..................................... Current Mood: depressed (4 Comments |Comment on this)